i miss you , the phrase is not enough to describe how im feeling right now .
im waiting , boy , for your grey icon to turn green .
just by staring at your name remind me of our conversation a few nights ago .
speechless like dont know what when you re-dont-invite(sound crap) me in your blog .
my english may not be as good as yours but im hurt , just like you .
maybe even more hurt .
whats the point of me being your friend , i dont feel save around you anyway .
must i forget you ?
it seems like a big NO answering from my heart but should i follow my heart ?
when will this end ?
here i am , writing about you in blog , no guts to talk to you in rl , on my birthday eve .
oh , it sound like a big thing , my birthday .
right , but i nvr ask for more except for a simple happy birthday from you .
just one thing and it will bring a get success for my 14 th birthday .
i need no presents , no wishes , nothing.
just you .
every tick on the clock went by slowly,
just like every second of my mind not leaving yours .
my heart ache when i try to stop myself from thinking of you ,
dont even mention to get away from you .
im lost in a jungle that leads to nowhere .
im going to a gate of no gate .
my mind is in mess just leaving you by yourself , lying helplessly .
trying to be a superwomen when i cant even save a cat .
trying to save you when i cant even save myself .
im trying so hard that even the sweat isnt worth its meaning .
i will not be sastified till the day you found your happiness .
your happiness not mine .
you didnt mean to hurt yourself because you're already hurt from the start , being with her .
i will be your guardian angel if you allow me to .
peace may be with you .
friend , senior , guy .
tmr my birth day , tmr my death day <3
Love me not ,
Natasha.
